Steven Callahan's complete letter regarding his questions
To: Byron Woodman
From: Steven Callahan
Re: Survival Questions
4 December 2004
Dear Byron,
I’m not sure what to tell you about questions I asked myself. There were so many. Generally, I have always been a pretty philosophical person (majored in it in university) so always when at sea I think about such things as man’s place in the world, the nature of reality, and other
abstracts. While surviving in my raft, I wondered about such things as
well. But physical survival requires physical considerations first.
Therefore, on a pragmatic level, I would ask myself each day, which of
the elements most critical to my physical survival needed the most
attention: water, food, or raft? All other considerations were secondary because without these primary needs being taken care of, I would not
live. Did I have the maximum amount of water stored; had I caught enough
food for a couple/few days; had the raft developed any small problems
that might become larger ones?
I also have found that solutions rest within problems and an accurate
dissection of the problem. I would ask, “What specifically are the most
basic elements of the problem that I am currently facing, and what
among my limited resources would address that specific need?” Eg. The problem is not that the solar still does not work, but that it is getting
torn from wave action and the water it produces is getting polluted with
salt water. The eventual fix was not to patch it and try again but to
use it in a completely different way than that directed.
Of course, one also has time in such circumstances to review one’s
pathetic little life, so I often asked myself, “Why was I such a failure,”
in many ways, particularly socially. This gave me a good deal to
consider, because questions then sprang from it: How can I do better at
relationships; how can I be more responsible financially . . .? One might
sum these things up as “How can I be a better person, to be of more
help to others, to be a willing participant in my society?” A sense of
belonging to something greater than one’s self gives the survivor a
sense of purpose and reason to hang on: to fix one’s self.
Many things happened and appeared around me that I can only describe as
miraculous, so many questions were those of shear wonder. “Why is it
that the fish learned the range of my spear gun within 24 hours, and
teasingly skirted around the raft just outside of that range, but as my
voyage lengthens, they bump the bottom of the raft, and get close enough
so that I can jab my spear into them, and even at times let me touch
them as they swim by?”
One of the central themes in Adrift has to do with the dilemmas
incorporated into our every decision and paradoxes incorporated into virtually
every aspect of our lives. For example, if I used a piece of gear to make a device to my benefit, I also lost precious raw material that I might need to create something even more critical to my survival later on. Therefore, I asked myself the constant question, “What is the worst-case scenario if I do this?” If I could accept the worst case, the decision was easy. If I could not, I would search for another answer. Similarly, when it blew hard, I made good progress towards salvation, but it was hard to fish or produce water, and I got more salt-water sores. If it was calm, I’d produce good water and more likely catch fish, but I made no progress towards salvation. Therefore, I asked myself, “What are the beneficial elements of what is happening right now?” so that I could concentrate on those and exploit those opportunities while ignoring as much as possible negative elements.
Of course, there are so many more questions and concepts that proved
critical to my survival. Perhaps the most important sprang from my
immediate realization that I would inevitably make mistakes, but I would
not live unless I took a proactive approach and never yielded to a “good
enough” attitude or laziness, so I asked myself constantly the very
simple question: “Am I doing the best I can?” If the answer was “Yes,”
well, I then accepted my reality; if the answer was “No”, old Captain
Bligh got out his whip.
STEVEN CALLAHAN
Steven spent over two months at sea in a life raft. He survived well and has written a New York Times Best Seller entitled: Adrift, Seventy-Six Days Lost at Sea. Drawing from his experiences, Steven invented The Clam. The Clam is the initial model of the patented FRIB (Folding Rigid-bottomed Inflatable Boat), which can be used as a wide variety of craft, from kayak to small powerboat. Its design is aimed to maximize The Clam's survival capabilities should the worst happen. Steven's questions focus on the practical necessities of survival and his own internal dialogue.
More information regarding Steven Callahan and the Clam can be located on Equipped.